What's to Come

There was a little talk in church services today about death and Heaven; and what Heaven will be like to an individual. When things like this come up in sermons or conversation I always go into my own world of thoughts and questions. But I will not lie, I often think of these things on my own when they are not brought up otherwise. Questions come up that everyone sooner or later ponders. But I get a very uneasy feelings in my stomach because I am unable to reach any solid answers. Where is Heaven and what is it like? Will we look down on Earth when we are there? Will we remember other humans we once new? How is that possible because wouldn't that involve the connection of emotion? Emotions surely is not connected with Heaven, because there is no sadness. Or is everyone just happy ALL the time?

When you think about what the bible says about the afterlife and what Heaven will be like it often seems crazy or just "out there." But what is even more crazy than thinking about our souls living eternally after death is thinking that our souls will NOT live eternally after death. To claim that there is no afterlife one is saying there is no reason for living. If I honestly believed this life was all for nothing and it was just coincidence to be where I was at any particular time, I would simply kill myself. I do not see how people can aimlessly live life without feeling there is a deeper purpose or that they are meant to become who they potentially are. If one is convinced there is no higher being, no purpose for life, then why waist time on Earth?

I wish I could understand what Heaven is like, but the mind simply cannot grasp it. I wish I could understand eternity, but the mind simply cannot grasp it. It is something that is scary and gives me a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I only pray that God can help me to settle these feelings I so often have. It is discouraging how many answers I seek and am unable to find, but I pray that God will guide me in the direction I need to go. We all have doubts, I just suppose that means we are searching for something more. I feel that God calls us to search for him and seek wisdom and answers. I pray that through the years I am able to grasp enough to get me to him, wherever that may be.